amaths test today, im still not feeling right up to standard.. my health is deteriorate everyday and my totally weak.. sigh.. im like suffering with terminal illness.. haix.. my mind is in turmoil, my heart collasping.. i need someone to help me outta here.. im falling, too deep that i cant figure out who i really am anymore.. but i dont wanna depend on pple anymore.. i hav to depend on myself.. i hav to pave my own road.. give me hope, once again.. nobody can help me this time.. if i cant do it, im giving up.. my life, my future, my own family.. im sorry.. i've let everyone down who loves me.. im sorry.. right here, i apologise for that and im sure your hope lies on other ppl, not me.. im hopeless..