may's coming soon.. things are bound to be different.. what goes up must comes down.. yeah..i dunno.. these few days like so depressed and stuff.. wanna talk to my friends but they like so busy.. i think i giving up on my studies la. i don even want listen to cher talking and i jus cant stay calm for a moment.. all i ever wanted to do was just to cry.. i keep failing my subjects esp both humanities.. haix.. sian.. feel like being alone and stuff.. am i confining myself in a dark corner?? all i see in life is only the dark side.. mayb im born to be a pessimistic girl.. yeah.. please tell me what to do, vann...
[[ all of our memories start to fade away, all this time u were pretending, so much for my happy ending... ]]

wooo.. mid year is just this friday start.. lol. tmr hav urmm..amths test!! yeah.. haha. im getting loads of pratice for it ltr.. i wan score A for it. today ehistory test.. lol. i score full marks liao.. lol. 30\30 sia.. me and my friend study damn hard. then today de weimar govt test i ans one ans we write down then she say one ans we write. lol. my opp row friend dunno then i passed my test paper across two rows summore. lol. if me and my partner dunno den i reach over de other side and we even take out the notes and discuss lorr.. in the middle of the walkway. lol. cher damn cock eye lorr.. lol. but i sure PIA for my midyr..

ytd SS then i talk to cher

huiyi: walao miss gan.. i hate SS.. it pull my whole CT down lorr.. i got 64 for my ehist then stupid SS pull my whole combined humanities dwn sia..
walao damnit la..

miss gan: oh.. wow.. ur hist score so high? then u let me see your SS paper then i see what went wrong. yeah?

huiyi: FINE!!! I HATE SS AND ESPECIALLY GEOGRAPHY!!!

today the sec 4 are stepping down from their posts... haix... calister.. me love u and miss you.. today is their last performance with us. then our batch will take over.. suddenly feel so lost... its like no seniors to lead me or something. and i cant joke with dem anymore.. they hav olvl.. don see them often.. yeah.. sigh.. i really missed the time we spent together.. every dance lesson we had.. and calister my best senior ever!! not forgetting grace too. yeah. me love them the most.. and i will go look for her every wk. lol.

urm.urm. yeah.. what? er. tomorrow having performance for innosphere opening.. me thinking of what just happened.. yeah.. RL called.. yup. for two times.i dont know why suddenly hav the urge to say something.. i jus felt that i wanted his attention so much. yeah.
But when I need you, You're almost here. Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you. And when I hold you your almost here. Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted, And now I'm with you I'm close to tears'cause I know I'm almost here...Only almost here
Once bruised and battered by your words, Dazed and shattered now it hurts.. Haven't I always loved you?

my sports meet!!

today is sports meet!!! woohoo!! so cool. wa.. see lots of my pri sch friends.. esp in dunman high.. yeah.. lol. today nv eat breakfast then go sch.. reach there hungry like siao.. cant eat summore.. is like 3plus.. wa.. i feel like fainting liao lorr.. hungry sia.. then only drink two cups milo.. wa lao.. my team is YELLOW!!! our team leader is dunman guy then hav temasek, ngee ann and cchms.. i was in 20*100. then was no.13!! i waited for the baton from another cchms guy then pia to the next guy, just nice running in frnt of my sch.. then can hear them shouting my name loudly sia!!! thanks for ur support man.. at first i number 3 one then i pass the baton to the ngee ann sec guy he ran half way them shoe fly off.. walao.. he go bac pick then became fourth liao lorr.. wa.. so sad... sniff!!!! so wasted!!! but nvm.. i nxt yr join 4*100 and 20*100.. it was cool. our team very supportive of each other.. though we didn get 1st, but it was worth it.. yeah.. we very united.. shouted our team v loud though frm diff schs.. yeah.. so heartwarming.. anywy, i jus wanna thank my friends who shouted for me and supported me.. very touched by it.. yeah..

OMG.......... look at my damned results!!!
chi: 55.5 C5
emaths: 57.5 C5
amaths: 52.5 C6
chemistry: 46.9 E8
physics: 57.5 C5
ehist: 64 B4 } elective: 43.8 E8
social studies: 23 F9 }
geography: 53.75 C6
all upon 100
:*( sobx.. my results... L1R5 : 35
HOW TO GO JC???? EVEN CANT GO POLYTECHNIC... GO ITE????
why am i so stupid?? haix.. very dissapointed with my results..
but i set a target for my mid yr liao..
CHI: A2
EMATHS: A1
AMATHS: A1
CHEMISTRY: A1
PHYSICS: B3
COMBINED HUMANITIES: B4 (hist:A2, ss: PASS)
GEOGRAPHY: B3
i know i can make it.. cause i really would put in effort now.. yeah. im gonna beat my friends le.. muahahaha

sigh.. me depressed thes few days... cant sleep.. keep crying for i dunno what the heck.. im frustrated... i hate my life... haix.. it is meaningless for me to live on... everything arnd me changed, i dont know who i am and neither do i know him anymore... yeah.. its different.. perhaps its the best if it ends? i really cant cope with this anymore.. i feel so used everyday, and when i think of that friday, i cant help but start crying.. why do i always hav to be the one sacrificing>? i dont wanna feel so affected anymore.. i've been used, betrayed.. im all alone by myself.. everyone's busy with their own exams.. i dont want study anymore.. best still, let me die.. i shoukd hav drank more medicine and died on that night.. noone knows the pain i suffered.. everyone thought i was fine... but deep inside, im not.. i cant trust anyone even him anymore.. mayb im over reacting but i cant get away the shadow of my past.. im trying but no one supports me, so why do it? forgt it, let it haunts me forever.. since im like that anyway. im tired, spiritually, emotionally and physically.. hiax.. thurs still hav to run sports day.. sucker.. nv mind.. *sniff*

answer the question how..

haix.. REALLY dunno what is wrong with blogger.. sigh.. me headache liao.. forget it. i give up trying to fix the broken link? yeah. anyway, the tag board is BELOW!!!!! think so?? school jus isnt fun.. since young, my geography has only been getting the highest is 60marks.. and the story or rather, reality, has been continuing since every exams and tests, until sec3, i've been so "pro" that i actually cant believe it that im in pure geography!!!!! (clap hands) yeah.. i really dunno how am i going to go into jc when all my subjects are failing and with my geography like this???? my olvl? forget it.. its useless anyway.. sigh.. give up le..

lol.. i passed my chi oral!!! but i lowest in class... walao.. damn pai seh... lol. i failed my chemistry, i passed my physics, emaths, amaths, chi.. lol. but just passed.. highest of all my marks is my physics!!! 60!!! lol. which means all my other subs are lousy.. haha.. sry.. but i don care le la.. yeah. im tired of studies. after this common tst then mid yr then ca again then olevel chi oral then eoy exams then olevel again.. sianztion.. sigh. i wonder how other sec3 cope sia.. crazy life... i don wan go through... :(

what the bloody shit? cant believe im in for sports meet... walao..
i really run like shit de.. summore in sprinting.. walao.. teacher- can i jus be a reserve??? pls???? lol. what the...sigh. cant believe it man.. fri oral test... ah!!!! i did so wonderfully well sia..
i actually SPOKE ENGLISH FOR THE FIRST TIME IN CHI ORAL!!!!
walao.. summore laugh luagh luagh.. sure confirm fail liao lorr...
nvrm still got nxt tym.. lol :) my comon tst also fail liao.. esp my physics.. nvrm.. i will "kan de kai".. lol